I got so angry at myself. I had been faithfully recording all my plastic use in the first few days and all that time I’d been using tiny single-use plastic creamer cartons for milk in my hot beverages and not even noticing.
Not. Even. Noticing.
Argh! I exclaimed on Facebook. GodDAMN! I wrote in my plastic log. I said far worse to myself.
Success, winning, perfection are not what this, or any, Lenten discipline is about. Beating myself up is destructive, and God is a creative force, not destructive. I can hear my husband saying “Remember this!” as I can be harder on myself than anyone else. Doing that won’t help me succeed in my Lenten discipline, especially as it was one I had chosen knowing it wasn’t going to be something I could “win” at.
So instead I need to be creative and constructive and allow my anger to be the drive that "gets it done", such as being a voice for change. As Will Chase says in the new series “Whiskey Cavalier”, “I have my feelings. My feelings don’t have me.”
- Instead of tiny plastic creamers? Bring my own milk to work in a small bottle.
- Write to the manufacturers of plastic (insert just about every product in existence here) and ask them to change their product packaging from plastic.